first i failed my test today with a 72%.... then later the instructor came in and told us they dropped some questions. so it jumped me up to a B!!! yay!

(b4 the instructor gave us the good news) i just looked soooo depressed in class lol . Janice and Carl were worried about me.

Ronnie, Carl, and i were spose to go to see Wreck it Ralph.. but freakin Ronnie DITCHED US AGAIN!!... so it was just me and Carl >.>.... we went anyways to celebrate that we passed the test. it didnt feel awkward tho, except when there were a few scenes of romance either in the movie or in the previews... i was just thinking, "oh crap, i hope he isnt thinking anything..>.<" lol!!

this turkey day, going to Janice's thanksgiving lunch [theyre serving fried turkey lol], and im bringing along Carl and Ronnie since i dont really know anyone of Janice's family.. then for dinner, im going with my family and relatives to [most likely] a chinese restaurant.

anyhoooo...

i finally stood up for myself!! to Ronnie! cause.. he can be so rude and mean to me!! like... teases me all the time and bringing me down... hurts my feelings... i always come home to Jay complaining of Ronnie >.<.... and Jay made me realize that im the type of person who wouldnt like to ruin a person's day and wont speak up for myself to change the course of actions. and he gave me the courage to stand up for myself.. so i did... and... it was weird. cause, once i started, he automatically said "ok ill just treat you like everyone else then" and starts walking away... o.O... im like... "im not done!!" LOL... u__u... fail... oh well, at least i got my main point across >.>;;;... i think. 

darn it! why must this saturday be sooo busy!!

theres..

Jay's dad's bday party at 5pm

Jason/Jesica's baby shower at 5pm

JanJan's game/movie/drinking night

@.@... 

i want to go to all of them!!! (even tho one of them isnt as important lol) but i have an exam on Tuesday... >.<... argh!! need to study..

so.. ever since Carl confessed to me and i turned him down....

it feels... awkward now b/w Carl and me o.O... like.. i noticed he didnt talk to me much today..

and it was even more awkward cause Ronnie kinda ditched us for some reason.. o.O... and so i had lunch with mostly Carl (our other classmate Ella was there but left 10-15 min after) and sometimes we would just have awkward silences.. and id try to come up with something so it wouldnt be as awkward. >.<....

i think i rather had him like me and not confess than him liking me and confessed and now awkwardness @.@... 

but then... when we communicated over the weekend, he seemed normalish and him kinda flirty with few text messages.. >.>... 

is this what they meant that girls and guys cant be friends? lol, i dont believe in that but he sure is making me think that. 

maybe he wants to distance himself from me. that sucks :/.. he told me once that he confessed to someone and she turned him down and he distanced himself from her for a whole year.. but wished he hadnt done that.. 

i think my endogenous drugs want to take over my logical mentation. but my logical mentation will prevail!! xP

http://origin-www.nbc.com/saturday-night-live/video/joseph-gordon-levitt-monologue/1418577

not for Hang to watch LOL!!

but omgah, i wouldnt expect this from Joseph Gordon Levitt. its so awkward watching this xD i still think he's fine! haha! 

its been really stressful at home.. 

but when Jay and i couldnt find any solutions to our problems, we just prayed together (i made him pray like always) and it was as if our troubles just lifted away and we became friends again. 

hopefully this time for good. cause im tired of crying!!!!... and trouble breathing at times.... >_>.... but i think that part is due to cumulative stress. 

anyways, satisfied of my grades at the moment...

1st skills math test: A

1st theory exam: B

1st skills check-off test: A

1st skills exam: B

2nd skills math test: A

1st pharm exam: B

darn you B's!!!! evolve to A's!!!!!

i saw this on lovelyish.

i didnt know ryan gosling was in the mickey mouse club and could sing!!! thats hot. (i mean, not at that age haha!!!).. JC looks soooo much older than JT, but theyre only 5 years apart!

i got an 83.3% on my exam today! woohoo!

i wish it were an A.... so then my classmate Carl would have bought lunch for me. he said he would buy lunch for me and Ronnie if we got A's. 

but Carl got an A instead after the teachers dropped two questions. so that means he is going to church with us this sunday xD... he's so worried ppl will discriminate him cause he is atheist.... but no one will even know! haha plus this church is very accepting to everyone.

Ronnie is so awkward sometimes -____-..

in the past, Ronnie has asked if i would be interested in Carl, but honestly Carl isnt my type cause... for one thing he is atheist haha, and im just not attracted to him at all. he's a cool guy to chill with but nothing more. 

like, when Carl and i went to Ronnie's house to study.. when we were leaving, Ronnie said, "you guys can sleep over next time! we have a guest bedroom that's king size bed.... (silence)... oh but i dont mean together!" and Carl and i are like... >.>;;... awkward lol. so i tried to lighten up the atmosphere and said that i would take the bed and Carl can sleep on the floor

and then when we were on yahoo chat room, Ronnie was asking if Carl would be interested in Tara (our classmate who is young), but she's a party girl and i think she would only go for white guys lol and not asian nerds LOL!

then Ronnie asks, "hmmm... who else is young and single".... -_-"... it was pretty obvious who. but gladly Carl changed the subject lol. 

its just very uncomfortable when Ronnie does that to us.. 

omgah i go on xanga and sooooo many posts mostly from Hang! lol..

i have no motivation to do hw... -____-... and i want to read at least 18 pages.. 

yesterday..

went to go jogging/running/walking with Anielle around noonish.. then ate and showered at her house. suffered thru a cold shower lol xD.. i think i left my eye liner at her house in her sister's room..

then around 4:30ish i got to Hang's house. she was cleaning/organizing her room and selling clothes. i went to do hw and read 15 pages with many breaks in between .. 

later around 10ish i left to go to Matt's event. he invited ppl to go to his house and watch a movie and drink. i was like, "what!?!? Matt is planning something?? at his house!?" lol. 

i felt bad for him cause he told me no one really replied to him even tho he invited 30 ppl. he told me to come by 10:30.. but i got there earlier since Hang was going somewhere even tho she was suppose to go earlier than i left.. 

so i just waited in front of his house and waited for Manny to come too since he gets off work at 10:30. (Matt called me eventually and said sorry that he was on filipino time cause he got bored and went to a friend's house lol). i told him where i was, and he asked if i was stalking LOL... anyways, so i just played music in the car and napped a lil bit. Matt finally came around 11pm with his motorcycle blinding me at my car door >.<.. 

man his house got prettier inside since last time i ever seen it (which was only once couple years ago). saw a pic of his older brother, and he looks like Ashley Hamilton (male) from beethoven 2 (doggy movie, the jerk guy). 

his room got prettier too. sooo many guns and mountain dew bottles tho o_O... 

Manny, Mustafa, and (filipino) Tommy came. i never really knew Tommy that much and never really conversated with him. but wow, he really acts feminine @.@.. lol! but he seems cool. 

we played a drinking movie game. we watched Mean Girls and the rules were...

each time they mention "Cady" in wrong pronunciation, when they say "fetch", when gretchen (sp?) reveals a secret, and when Karen has a blonde moment. 

i got pretty tipsy @.@.... 

left around 2am and drove to Michelle W's house to sleep over. i guess i have no sense of direction when i have alcohol in my system.... i got lost going to her place LOL.. 

Lauren was there too .. but i kinda feel bad cause i immediately fell asleep lol!.. they were watching an episode of Top Model which i dont have much interest in.. :/

and then i woke up at 9 to get ready and go to church. so... in a way.. i didnt really hang out with Michelle much lol ><

anyways... no one is answering their phones today... :/