im doing my work in my cubicle and i hear this man coming in, through the lil gate that says "employees only" and he sits himself at Faidra's cubicle breathing heavily. and says "hi faidra! OMG you are soo pretty"

Faidra: you cannot come in like that, you need to leave!

man: you are soo gorgeous! i love you!!! you should marry me!! *chuckles*

Faidra: im going to call the police if you do not leave right now

Eva: *comes over* excuse me sir! you need to leave right now!

man: i need financial aid help... i love you Faidra!! *leaves*

[few mins later]

he opens the door, and says to someone walking by, "i love you!"

he then talks to Tami who's in the front desk, "hi, i would like to talk to Faidra"

Tami: uhh.. she cant see anyone at the moment.

man: i just need to ask her something. Faidra i love you!

[he asks Tami where to do go to do something, she directs him... Jerry is now in the front desk.. man returns]

man: hi. you know i proposed to Faidra.

Jerry: oh yea? what did she say?

man: she looked at me with her dark eyes and said yes. i waited at our marriage ceremony, and she stood me up!... anyways, can i make an appt with Faidra? i can meet her at her house

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and i dont remember after that cause i was laughing my ass off xD..

and that man was chuckling a lot so i thot at first he was just joking around and harassing her. but Faidra told me he is crazy. mental condition... i was like.. wow! o.o

-when you approach someone, dont know if you wanna shake, hug, cheek kiss, high five.. and then maybe end up having an awkward clash of both a hug and shake.. or any of the others

-the famous walking past or around someone you are acquainted with but you and the person act like you guys dont know each other and avoid eye contact, waiting to see if maybe the person would say hi first, if not then continue walking

-when someone asks "hi! how are you?" and i reply "good! how are you?".... *no response*...lol...

-when hanging out with someone [whether its from your closest friend to just someone you randomly met] has a good conversation, then all of a sudden dead silence.. having that brain fart and not able to think of what topic to come up with next.

-when talking to someone and not knowing where to look because making eye contact for so long just makes it feel weird lol.

-when youre in some kind of social event, and all of a sudden cliques start forming and you are unsure of which group to join and feel like you cant connect that much with the ppl.. and end up just getting a cup of tea and drinking it slowly to just look busy with something.. ok maybe this one is just me xD

-when dealing with something unfamiliar... like one time, there was this guy in a wheel chair on an up slope sidewalk, i was coming closer and closer to him from behind.. i didnt know whether to ask if he needed help or if he was ok struggling ><...lol.. i felt sooo horrible and awkward when i passed him.. but his chair didnt have those handles to help push his chair.

-calling someone you recently met a different name just because they look like that name. for instance, eric mitone looks like a tom to me.. one time at a party, i called him tom xD... another time this guy named thomas looked like an anthony.. and i just kept calling him anthony hahaha

like recently..

i was in the bathroom getting ready for work or school.. the lotion was right next to the toothpaste [similar looking containers] and i grabbed the lotion and put it on my tooth brush xD... and then b4 i stuck it in my mouth, i looked at it, and i was like "wtf?... why does the toothpaste look like that???... oh sh*t!" haha

and one time i was driving from brentwood/antioch to home, and i totally missed my exit on railroad.. and i had to exit bailey too lol.. i was like "where is the freakin next exit!?!?" xD..[but it was cause i got distracted from a phone call *cough* uly]

yay for making SO get back to school! xD

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i learned some good stuff in human sexuality class. the teacher let us write down questions on paper [anonymous ones] for the teacher to answer

my first question was: when a person has a lover and spends a lot of time with the lover, and the person's friend gets upset that the person does not spend much time with the friend, what should the person do?

his answer from what i remember: friends are very important and will be there for you. those who have lovers tend to hang out with those who have lovers as well. the friend just doesnt know/realize how it is when one gets into a relationship. i understand that when i have a friend and we've been buddies and hang out a lot, but when there's a change and i get into a relationship, the friend will get mad at me. this is very common. expectations just needs to change for both sides.

my next quesion: what would you do in the friend's position?

his answer: get a gf/bf! haha! but what a friend shouldnt do is whine about it. like "you dont hang out with me anymore!/you just hang out with your bf/gf!" this will cause the person to feel like she or he should back away from this friend who is putting negative energy towards em.

Jay's answer towards this issue: when your friend is with someone and wants to spend his/her time with his/her SO, just let them. dont force em or anything. if they stop hanging out or going to events, then stop inviting them to the events. they will, hopefully, realize later that they wanna hang out again and join back into the circle. cause you dont want to piss off your friend and push them further away even tho you miss them.

someone's question: what do you do when you have someone who keeps trying to get back with you?

teacher's answer: if you break up with soemone, and he says "no i want you still! i need you" and disregarding how you feel, he is being greedy/self-centered/selfish. if he checks up on you, like calls every some months, and wants to "hang out," he is trying to see if you're vulnerable, wants to see if you still have feelings for him and he feeds off this and tries to lure you in if you show any care.

you shouldnt care if you want to just stay friends. if he says "i cant live w/o you!" dont give in! care enough not to care. can't even care a little bit and ignore him. "you can't get a lil bit of heroin, you need to get it all"..meaning, you can't just ignore him a lil bit, you need to ignore him totally.

he doesnt need you. he was doing fine before the relationship. this is called parent-child dependency. if he still wants to be friends, tell him "ok, contact me in 6 months, and we'll see from there"

[i tried my best remembering what he said...lol]

my third question: HOW do you let go of your ego so you can be vulnerable so you can tell your SO about your feelings.

teacher says: its more of an ability and having the attitude for it. being able to do this, letting go of your ego, then telling how you feel, is not weakness, it's strength. so its just overcoming it.

if i described to you a person, without mentioning the gender, just about what he or she did..

but you assumed that the person was a female..

then i tell you "'she' is actually a 'he'"

would you think either:

(A) oops i made a mistake and assumed the person was a female!

or

(B) the person is a transvestite/cross-dresses??

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let me know

finals are just around the corner!!! D:

got my nails did!

i cant stop staring at them @.@

done with the commercial stuff. it was ok. didnt really do much posing. met a guy named Tim who is best friends with Philip from wongfu. its a sign im spose to meet wongfu xD like that time i saw two members of wongu from noodle world.

my eye doc emailed me the commercial. so if you want to see it, its on my laptop lol. i look foonay

Jay cooked me sinigang. i shoulda bought more meat for it... oh well. ish yummy!

yesterday, Krys, Hang and i got our nails done and i heard that across from the place is My Nails.. and i hear its waaayy cheaper o.o..

Jay got annoyed at me yesterday cause i told someone too much info about him.. oops.

im hungry again.. sinigang is soo good but doesnt fill me up for a while.

it feels weird typing with these long nails.

my bday was sooo fun! but no bueno when i yacked in claim jumpers toilet haha.. Jay says he heard it from outside the bathroom. but right after i felt sober. i felt like i was about to faint from dehydration.

karaoke was super fun! Trevor is so funny lol. and Matt showed up to both of the events surprisingly.

i have one paper to right today.. and one more for tomorrow.. then i will have 7 pages!

i cant wait till school is over!

blogging during class

i have soo many assignments to do around this birthday month -__-.. i hate being born in this month cause its finals month!

To Do List:

1. i need to read the rest of "The End of America" [i have 65 pages left at least..]

2. i need to study for human sexuality final [15 lectures; only studied one lecture so far]

3. i need to write a 7-9 page research paper on "closed" or "closing" society for English [gonna start today]

4. i need to study for bio final [47 questions to answer; haven't started]

5. i need to write 4 paragraphs for bio take-home essay [haven't started]

6. i want to do the extra credit 2 paragraph essay for bio [haven't started]

7. i need to write my sexual history essay [haven't started]

2 more weeks of school?? @.@

i can do it tho.

im so fat this week xD.. i will have 3 cakes by the end of this week lol.. cause i had one w/ Jay's family.. tomorrow my coworkers are getting me a chocolate cake [and pizza].. and this weekend if Claim Jumpers are giving me a cake [or maybe its a dessert, i dunno]

i miss exercising T-T

this month [one of the saturdays] im going to take a part in doing a commercial and photo shoot for my eye doctor's daughter who wants to promote her eye clinic i think.. my eye doctor, Michael, says he will give me 2 pairs of free contacts and free eye exam. whoot

by Naomi Wolf

[i find this very interesting, even tho im not very political.. but when it comes to "its a free country" is total BS, especially since 2006]

it says at the end of the intro:

Everything changed in America in September 2006, when Congress passed the Military Commissions Act. This law created a new legal reality that heralds the end of America if we do not take action. Yet most Americans still do not understand what happened to them when that law passed.

This law gives the president - any president - the authority to establish a separate justice system for trying alien unlawful enemy combatants...Under the MCA, the government can use 'coerced' interrogation to obtain evidence...

...The president and his lawyers now claim the authority to designate any American citizen he chooses as being an 'enemy combatant'; and to define both 'torture' and 'material support' broadly. They claim the authority to give anyone in the executive branch the power to knock on your door, seize you on the street, or grab you as you are changing planes at Newark or Atlanta airports; blindfold you and put earphones on you; take you to a cell in a navy prison; keep you in complete isolation for months or even years; delay your trial again and again; and make it hard for you to communicate with your lawyer. The president claims the authority to direct agents to threaten you in interrogations and allow into your trial things you confessed to while you were being mistreated.

The president claims the authority to do any of those things to any American citizen now on his say-so alone. Let me repeat this: The president asserts that he can do this to you even if you have never committed a crime of any kind; 'enemy combatant' is a status offense. Meaning that if the president says you are one, then you are.

...

Last September, concerned about the legal arguments being put forward by the Department of Justice, I called a friend who is a professor of constitutional law.

'Does the administration assert that the president can define anyone he wants to as an "enemy combatant"? Including U.S. citizens?...Any of us for any reason he decides can be seized off the street and imprisoned in isolation for months and interrogated?' I asked.

'Yes (to all),' he said.

'So why isn't anyone saying that?'

'Some people are. But a lot of people probably think it would just sound crazy,' he replied."

i havent posted in a lil while :O

so im stressed as well..

b4 last saturday, my spring break was horrible =/... cause i worked all week. and no one was available most of the time to hang out.. =/.. and i got rejected from nursing program in csu eb [but that was expected lol]

im mostly stressed out because Jay is jobless, was denied EDD [unemployment benefits] because his bosses are liars and it takes too long to appeal it, and im scared that he's going to run out of money after we pay our bills. at least im making $969.~ a month.

i just hope he finds a job soon.. and at least he will get financial aid when he starts school. but im also stressed for him cause most of the classes are full =/.. i told him to just show up to the class with add slips anyways.

i had a bad dream that Jay was tired of me ><.. and i told his sister on him. lol

im still a bit confused on what i should do with my future... -______-...

anyways, on a good note, last weekend was pretty awesome cause Jay and i went on 2 double dates lol.

saturday - went to davis sushi buffet w/ Josh and Geron. omgah! i ate sooo much sashimi ><... i shouldnt have.. i had really bad stomach aches and felt nauseous ><... and i hated using the public bathrooms.. there was cockroaches in one of the bathrooms i used @.@... gross.. and later we went bowling too. it was fun! despite the tummy ache.. ><

sunday - went to Jay's church. after, picked up Hang and Mark to go to SF. we went to the Dr. Seus art gallery. it was super small! lol. i thought it would be a big place. it was interesting. the guy who worked there was very anti social.. then we went to japantown. got crepes and bought stuff at daiso and another store. we ate at this japanese restaurant and for some reason the waitress cancelled Jay's order and thought he wasnt eating haha. my feet were killing me. i also bought some incense.

it was funny cause the guy who worked at the incense store noticed how Jay acts [all sarcastic or silly or witty w/ his comments... i dunno] and asked me "is he always like this??" and i replied "yea he is xD"

i dont usually work in the labs anymore for financial aid help. im doing it today cause no one else can. i kinda miss it and miss the ppl who would bless me after helping them. makes me feel good.

i need to pee..

ive been taking more naps lately. when i come home and after early dinner, i get sooooo sleepy! and i nap for an hour! and it feels so awesome!! although i make Jay frustrated cause he has no room to sit on the couch to watch tv lol

Jay and i are thinking about going to disney land for spring break. were not sure yet cause of the cost.. it would be awesome if ppl could go too.

im getting better now, with this stupid cold. now im just mostly coughing everywhere and in the mornings i have lots of gooey snot to blow out :8)

haha

you ppl dont blog a lot! lol. especially Rox!

Jay made spaghetti yesterday, yum!

ive been sooooooooooooo sleepy in all my classes lately.. i just want to fall asleep!

i feel so fat.. i havent worked out in a while ><

after lots of thinking.. i finally decided i just want to keep my bday simple and not so far. save gas money for everyone too.

i found this great hookah bar in sf where you can eat and drink. but i then i know some of our friends hate "smoking" no matter what kind. and hookah isnt a 100% healthy.. lol

oh well. so i put it to claim jumper [where they have good drinks/girly drinks] and karaoke afterwards. sounds good?

yea, drunk karaoke !!! lol jk

im hungry now.