so today Carl and i went to play tennis and study afterwards for our next test next week.

after tennis, we went to his house cus Carl needed to change. and his grandma was there asking me so many questions lol... one of them being "so did Carl meet your parents yet?" and i was like... "uuuhhh... well when i asked him to come help me with something, i also had to go pick something up from my parents.. so yea he has" xD.. Carl seemed so embarrassed lol.

later, we went to paneras... and then we got hungry and found a vegetarian/vegan japanese place in concord. they can serve sushi w/ brown rice @.@.. whoa! lol [even tho Hang wouldnt like to eat brown rice lol..], but it was a lil bit pricey, but good! 

then we went to starbucks to study, the one near concord's Nations.. it was soooo packed! i think since they close at 11:30pm.. and so we sat outside... but there were smokers and we were dying! eventually we went inside... and sat next to this physical therapist massager guy giving his client (who recently had a stroke) an arm massage and i was like, "hey where's mine?? *extends my arm* xD" but oh man, i shouldnt have opened my mouth cus this physical therapist was such a chatter box!!! @.@.... i feel like i know his life story and plus what his future is going to be like.. lol! but its cool. he wants to be a professional arm wrestler.. so he taught me how to arm wrestle better. and he mentioned that im pretty strong for a girl lol!

anyways... im so thankful to Carl cus he fixed and added soooooo much to my ethics essay @.@.. he's so smart! i wish i could be as smart as him.. 

what else happened recently.....hmmm...

yesterday, Ivan (our other classmate), randomly asked me whens my break and what i wanted from Quickly's if he were to go there and drop the boba to me.. and then brought me boba and fried octopus from Quickly's. so sweet! i mean, i mentioned he owes me boba since he stuck me twice for the IV needle.. but i thought we were just kidding around about that. and he stayed around for my whole 25 min break. i was thinking, is he up to something?? >.>.... or maybe he really is just being a cool friend lol!

my memory fails me sometimes... like.. really bad.

there use to be a girl who worked here named Racquel... but i dont remember what she looked like! and im replacing how she looks/talks with our current worker Renee.. the thing is they are both black and.. large.. >.>.. sorry just sayin.. lol

but my coworker, Faidra, showed me a pic of the current Racquel and she lost a tremendous amount of weight! and she looks so awesome! i was shocked! altho i dont remember what she exactly looked like b4 when she worked here >.<... so now i can only imagine her in that pic...

im terrible :p

so im at work right now.. and im soooooo bored... working 9.5 hr shift. then the following days 10 hr shifts. *dies!*

and Chunni always assigns me work to do. and sometimes she says to take my time since im "too quick".... but the work is sooo boring!! @.@... x__X.. i wish she could give me more intense work.

i mean, i can only highlight, "ctrl+c" and "ctrl+v", type a few phrases here and there, click some buttons here and there.. and at the same time being on facebook, texting, xanga, checking my email, ordering my books for csu east bay, turning in my intent to register online for csu eb, and zoning out so slowly. lol!

ugh.. still need to finish my ethics essay... maybe i should bring that tomorrow and work on it xD

my shoulders hurt... need massage..

past few days.. played tennis, badminton, basketball, jogged, and football (w/ Carl, Ronnie, and Rodi). im pretty sore.. and im trying to eat healthier.

also been walking around the lake twice each time im at work.

the endorphins have been kicking in and ive been in a better mood ... except right now of course lol

i think ima try to not wear make up for a whole week and see how it goes..

cus i just feel insecure w/o it

but at the same time im not really trying to impress anyone at the moment.. esp since im still living here.

plus everyone says i dont need it and that i look the same. 

and also that it makes getting ready for the day faster.. i take like... 15-25 min on make up (depending on if i mess up)

how i do my make up:

1. apply face moisturizer

2. apply top eye liner [or black eye shadow if i run out of eye liner pen] both eyes

3. apply primer above (youre really suppose to apply primer all over eyes first but my eye lids are weird)

4. apply eye shadow at bottom water line 

5. apply eye shadow at eye brows to make more defined/structured with an angled brush

6. apply setting spray: urban decay all nighter spray only to eye lids (if im out all day, ill apply hair spray on my eye lids, it works!)

[7. if im going to a party, ill apply contouring make up to my cheeks and double chin to look slimmer]

[this is what i do EVERYDAY!!]

it gets tiring..

so RIGHT AFTER my last post... Carl texted me while he was still at work, wondering why i was "off" today. and if im mad at him and/or ronnie again.

and i told him the truth, that i was kinda trying to ignore him because i felt like he was giving me attitude all day after work yesterday. 

and now he says he wants to talk face to face rather then text... >.>... 

on sunday after church, Carl and i went to Ronnie's house and played mah jong.. and then we rode bikes to the park.. and went on the climbing boulder and the rope climbing thingy (like the one from monkey park)... and then we played frisbee and threw it at each other for a long good time. it was refreshing!! and such a good day

there's this new korean guy going to church named Su Kim (or... Kim Su.. lol!), and i think he is kinda cute in a mature way. he's 33 years old, but he looks like he's maybe.. 28 or something. Carl and i met him by going to the new comers meeting with Pastor John and his family. turns out, Su just graduated from a BSN program from Utah and his family is here in Concord. he said he found this church by a friend and i think he mentioned he really came to like this church. maybe he has a gf tho. i dunno LOL

yesterday, after work, i asked Carl to take me home and we can do hw or w/e at my apartment until bible study with Ronnie/Rodi's growth group later at 7pm. and Carl was i dunno.. giving me attitude here and there! it was really getting on my nerves!!!! and a lot of the times, when i say something, he just doesnt say anything at all and that makes me feel ignored which irritated me more. 

and other times he says something, and i couldnt hear him, and he just says, "nothing!/nvm"... i hate that -___-... either speak up or dont say anything at all if you keep talking under your breath!

and he asked if he could see my ethics paper. i told him not to laugh at it cause theres a lot of grammatical errors.. after he read it, i asked him how it was, and he said "well.. yes there are a LOT of grammatical errors, and i thought you could have used better examples"... and then i forgot what he said.. that he wasnt going to tell me better examples even tho examples for this topic are hard to find.. i told him, "youre mean.." and he said, "yea, that was mean." but didnt say sorry or anything.....

so i tried to keep my distance from him the rest of the night except during the car rides.

during the bible study, i played a lot with a cute baby ...

on the ride home.. i was telling Carl that the baby was so cute! and then he said..

carl: go make your own then

me: nah.. im too young! ill wait till im like.. 28 or something... thats if i have someone

carl: you will.... youre attractive and you have a great personality

me:... thanks! but.. im picky. just like how youre really picky right? haha (awkward laugh)

anyways... i told Jay all this about Carl, and Jay says that it seems Carl is REALLY liking me now and is confused because he knows he can't have me yet he still likes me.. >.>.. maybe i should distance myself from him a little bit..