December 24, 2012

  • my classmate says im a heart throb lol... no im not! 

    but.. why do i attract smokers?? -___-" (well except one of them who is actually an anti-smoker)

    anyways.. 

    yesterday, Jay said he would go with me to drop off gifts. but b4 we went..

    Jay: are you sure theres no hope between us?

    me:................... uuuhhhhhh.... arent you still talking to that woman???

    Jay: not really anymore.. but if i did end up quitting, would there be any hope?

    me:... i dunno... i dont want to give any hope... and i cant predict the future... but i dont want to lead you on! 

    Jay: thats true.. we cant predict the future.. but hope is all i got. 

    me:...... [dont know what to say]... 

    [later, Jay brings me to go shopping for my Christmas gift since i got him something lol..]

    me: i cant find anything i want.. its too last minute and only got 45 mins to shop :/..

    Jay: well i didnt know you were going to get me a gift.. i thought we agreed no Christmas gift this year!

    me: we never said anything!

    Jay: it was implied since were broke! lol.... i WAS going to buy you a necklace today, but you rushed me home.

    me:... really?... aaww! *side bumps into him*

    Jay: yea, but now im gonna change it. 

    me:... aw... -_-

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    anyways, it made me kinda smile of him still thinking about us... but... at the same time, when i look back into the past, i remember the lie and that woman. trust issues.. i mean... i trust him as a friend, but is there a difference with trust in friendship vs. relationship??... cus isnt there friendship in a relationship?

    i dunno, i dont wanna think about it.. i dont wanna get into a relationship right now. and i dont want to break my principles of going back >.<.. 

Comments (3)

  • DON'T BREAK THE PRINCIPLESS lol. you already broke it w/ letting him smoke b4.

    i mean, even if he quits, what if he goes back again. and like, principles are principles for a reason. even though the smoking was pretty much a non-negotiable; who says you won't get annoyed at it in the future if he (or someone else) starts again.

    AND. iono, even though he doesn't have feelings for that other person; isn't that kinda semi-rebound status?

    it's kinda like if u have someone around long enough, feelings come up even if they weren't there before. (err in this case, feelings came up again, even after you broke up).

    buttt it's you're choice =P. there's couples that have broken up and gotten back together again for the long-term but anyway, you're just finishing up nursing school & soon, you might move so that u can hold down a job & get experience.

  • @tsuki_dragon - yea... must stand my ground!!!.. even tho he did get me the necklace.. hearts with diamonds... but he said its out of friendship lol.. what friend would buy someone diamonds??? lol

  • @flossblindsme - lol no idea

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