November 25, 2011

• lol Jay and i dreamed really similar things.. freaky.

  well.. Jay is really stressed.. and yesterday night, he told me the truth, that he still craves smoking [which i already knew], but he wishes that i would be more lenient and let him smoke when he is super stressed, especially when im pushing him to find a job and go to school and cook and clean all at once.. ><.. i told him that if he gets a good job, i would quit my job, so he can support me, and i would have more time to clean and cook for him. 

  im thinking of actually considering letting him smoke.. even tho i hate it.. but ONLY for relieving stress. not when he is partying/socializing/drinking.. and i really dont want to smell it when he comes near me ><.. he also mentioned that he doesnt hang out with his friends much anymore cause all they do is smoke and if he hangs out with them, it'll make him want to smoke even more. :/..

  but anyways..

  i had a dream that since i let him smoke again, i decided to try it. and when i tried it, i felt really good, like.. totally relaxed. lol!

  he dreamed that i smoked in front of him, like taunting him, even tho he couldnt smoke... hahaha.

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  on the bright side, i was talking to one of Jay's brother in law's friend, Ryan. he told me that this eco performance builders company or w/e that is hiring for ppl who can make attics more eco friendly. so i got the information about it and gonna encourage Jay to contact them. 

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