[for some reason all my words are together... only edited some parts where i thought could be confusing. Carl ended up deciding to just talk on yahoo messenger instead of in person cus i was busy at the time]
chsiao511: do you wanna know why i was annoyed with you?
chsiao511: or do you know maybe?
carl33_17: what i perceive and what might be the actual can be two different things... tell me
chsiao511: iwanttohearwhatyouthoughtfirstxD
carl33_17: you were annoyed because i was acting differently and cold, and was having "secre't" conversations with ronnie?
chsiao511: whenwereyouhavingsecret convos withronnie?today?
carl33_17: when we [Ronnie and i] would go print notes
carl33_17: we would talk about what was up....
carl33_17: but all conversations were initiated by me...
chsiao511: areyoumadatme?
chsiao511: well,yeacusyouwereactingsocoldtomeyesterdayandrude,itwasgettingonmynervesandthoughtishouldkeepmydistantfromyou beside the car rides
chsiao511: so....watsup?whatiswrong?
carl33_17: ah, but to answer your previous questions first...
carl33_17: no i'm not mad at you... not even close lol
chsiao511: so...thenwhywereyouactingthatway?
carl33_17: hm, i guess i should start from the start......
carl33_17: like about a month ago
carl33_17: i was chatting with my friend from the philippines
carl33_17: and we were just catching up and stuff
carl33_17: where am i going with this
chsiao511: ihavenoidealol
carl33_17: ah yeah... so we were just chilling...
carl33_17: anyway, to make it really short
carl33_17: he gave me advice to stop hanging around with you so much....
chsiao511: sothatmeanstoactthatwaytowardsmetoo?
carl33_17: i brushed off his advice when he gave it to me lol
carl33_17: that was like about a month ago
carl33_17: ugh, i guess i should have included more detail =.-
carl33_17: but the last few weeks, i've been thinking a lot about what he said
carl33_17: when i told you i like you and we had that talk and i said i'd be cool with it... i really thought i would be able to pull it off
carl33_17: and for a while right after that time i thought i was gona be over it....
carl33_17: but we still spend a rather good chunk of time together... even ronnie said so....
carl33_17: and i just find myself falling for you even more
carl33_17: so... i thought...
carl33_17: ah, maybe i should try my friend's advice =.=
carl33_17: but, i'm not very good at how to approach that kind of thing so i didn't really know how to do it...
carl33_17: so i guess i ended up being an ass... and when it got to you and i saw you annoyed this morning... i was like carl, you moron =.=
chsiao511: well...whatwouldyouratherhavemaybe?..ifyouwant,i can distance and we dont have to hangout as much.or..ifyou dont want to be friends anymore so it helps...or just let us continue to be friends despite your feelings..
chsiao511: isitaffectingyouthatmuch?
carl33_17: well, it's not really affecting me that much at all.... i mean... i was acting okay before, right? things just got dumb when i failingly tried to do my friend's advice =s
carl33_17: this would be asking a lot, but can we just pretend all this didn't happen and go back to normal?
chsiao511: idontthinkthatsaskingalotxD
chsiao511: thatswhatiwouldprefer
chsiao511: i think ronnie shouldnt have a say in that we hang out alot...cus he freakn ditches us aaalllllllllllthetime!!
carl33_17: ah, please don't put any blame on him for this...
carl33_17: i was the one who started it -.-
chsiao511: imnot,just messin lol..
chsiao511: butdidhegiveyouanyadvice?
carl33_17: he just makes random comments.... lol
carl33_17: and some of them just served to confuse me lol
chsiao511: again...hewouldlol
chsiao511: butimgladwecanstillbecool cus iconsideryoulikeoneofmybestfriends=]
chsiao511: andihopeyoudontconsiderthata bad thing...>.>...lol
carl33_17: it's not a bad thing i suppose
carl33_17: lol w/e i'm feeling a tinge of heart break right now! that answer is fine for now xD
chsiao511: i wonder how your vsd [ventricular septal defect... basically he has a hole in his heart.. he was born with it] is taking it
carl33_17: w/e connie >.>
carl33_17: anyway, you have a long day tomorrow
chsiao511: hehe sorry...that was actually insensitive for me to say>.<
carl33_17: i'm going to bed, g'night
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then at class, i apologized to him for that insensitive comment i made. he told me was was pissed off at it but got over it. i gave him a sorry brownie. but he didnt want it -_-.. cus he said he doesnt really like brownies [but ive seen him eat brownies b4!! o.O].. oh well w/e.. i felt like there were still tension b/w us. but later he eventually lightened up i guess and we were kinda back to normal.. it was more like.. trying to make sure theres no awkward silences so we just kept talking to each other during break when Ronnie didnt join us. or maybe im over thinking it haha
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i hate those talks!
iono , for me connie i dont think it ends well haha. it will work for a while but it will eventually eat inside him [esp with him falling harder for u]. and this will come up again.. another "talk" or him distancing himself.
the whole "pretending it didn't happen and that everything is ok and we'll act normal" thing has yet to work for me. we tried to do that but it just didnt work out
and also even when we tried to distance it just became awkward ..
with jason?
NNOPE
jonathan?
NOPE
anthony?
NOPE
it makes me really sad inside that you cant get too close to ppl cause i'm the type to create very close bonds and with an open heart. i feel like only close friendships without ruining anything are when they are the same sex and if they are not gay (ie. my friendship with you). you and uly on the other hand are one of a kind or something. lol
@ConKhii - well im good with my other exes too (except 2 of them). but i never went out with Carl... so this will be interesting... ill update if anything new or he continues to feel awkward
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