it took me 6 hours to complete one page of my essay xD... so sad.. i get distracted sooooo easily!!!! but yay i bought a new watch! water proof and its so pretty! it was $16! good price. the sad part is.. wont arrive until february -___-"

i need space from Jay -___-.. i guess some things i do annoys him.. which causes him to give me attitude.. yet he doesnt just straight up tell me about it. 

but i was so proud of myself cause i stood up in front of him one time and told him off and shut him up!! >:]... well i dunno if it was really effective tho.. maybe i only annoyed him even more xD

i still cant even trust him even as friends.. prolly cus i still have some feelings somewhere in my endocrine system.. he says he wont see anyone until we move... but for some reason i keep assuming or thinking he is seeing that woman behind my back :/... yet he sincerely tells me that he would never want to make me feel awful (more than i do already?) and he always tries to hide his phone away from me.. i think i saw a picture of her as the background texting under her text frame (w/e you call it) (didnt know phones can do that!.. if only mine could... if only it was the galaxy note II lol!..)

oh jealousy... why must you torture me so?... i want to move out!!!! D: ... but where?? dont want to go back to parents... i look forward to the day of moving out so i can officially get over Jay.. to the point where if he has a gf, i wouldnt care that much or that i would just get over it. 

anyways.. been single for 6.5 months. yee!  

omgah, saw this totally cute guy working in the transfer center xD... would suck to find out if he's younger than me.. (all these whipper snappers coming from high school...-_-)... but as i was walking passed the transfer center, we locked eyes.. i looked more back to act like i was trying to see around the place... then i looked at him again and he was still looking at me... and i was like... "yea he's cute..." hahaha... 

ugh so embarrassing near the end of my shift... my eyes were all smudgy and no one got the nerve to just tell me -___-.. and i was helping students in person! i was covering the front counter.. and when i went to the bathroom, i was like... wow i look dead! like.. having panda eyes!!! >.<... whyyyyyy lol!!

oh yea, and then there was this other attractive white tall male that Chunni had an appointment with, that i interrupted their appt cus i had to get my purse and go home. the guy said with a smile, "you owe me one!!"...he had a nice deep voice.. i shoulda said, "ok! " with my squeeky voice hahaha (not sexually -_-) but then Chunni came back in to her office room and interrupted before i could say anything, i only got to laugh. boo. haha